So many reasons to be happy
"Got my dreams, got my life, got my love; Got my friends, got the sunshine above. Why am I making this hard on myself when there's so many beautiful reasons I have to be happy?"
Two things about that quote: 1. I like it. It makes sense. 2. I am now an official wimp, having just used the lyrics from a Natasha Bedingfield song.
I don't have much else to say except that I terribly miss not being able to write; not being able to express myself here.
We're moving and it's taking every physical ounce of me to get through. Add to that the wonderful memories here -- the paintings; our anniversary party under the lights of our avocado tree; the feeling of peace I'd get walking in the door; the Christmas before last; the sound of laughter.......
Now I'm making a home on my own. It's so weird. But God has an amazing sense for timing. I met with The Rock Academy a day after Jeseca died. The boys were accepted. I was needed more often at work, and the very day I had to report the boys started their ARTS class. Now we're moving. God will surely reveal to me why here and now.
I was asked in an interview a few months ago if I could predict what the next few years would be like. I thought it a silly question, honestly. I responded by admitting that I would never be able to predict what God will do as He guides me down this road toward Him. It ever winds and bends; when I think a right turn's coming, inevitably I need to turn left. Nothing ever works out the way I think it should or will. In fact, it's quite the opposite most of the time. And that's exactly the way it's supposed to be, at least as far as I can tell. God doesn't want to give me the road map for my life so I can take it and run off without Him. Instead, He simply asks that I cultivate that mustard seed of faith and allow Him to do what He does best.
He'll make all things good in time. Right now I just need to wait and listen. JG
Two things about that quote: 1. I like it. It makes sense. 2. I am now an official wimp, having just used the lyrics from a Natasha Bedingfield song.
I don't have much else to say except that I terribly miss not being able to write; not being able to express myself here.
We're moving and it's taking every physical ounce of me to get through. Add to that the wonderful memories here -- the paintings; our anniversary party under the lights of our avocado tree; the feeling of peace I'd get walking in the door; the Christmas before last; the sound of laughter.......
Now I'm making a home on my own. It's so weird. But God has an amazing sense for timing. I met with The Rock Academy a day after Jeseca died. The boys were accepted. I was needed more often at work, and the very day I had to report the boys started their ARTS class. Now we're moving. God will surely reveal to me why here and now.
I was asked in an interview a few months ago if I could predict what the next few years would be like. I thought it a silly question, honestly. I responded by admitting that I would never be able to predict what God will do as He guides me down this road toward Him. It ever winds and bends; when I think a right turn's coming, inevitably I need to turn left. Nothing ever works out the way I think it should or will. In fact, it's quite the opposite most of the time. And that's exactly the way it's supposed to be, at least as far as I can tell. God doesn't want to give me the road map for my life so I can take it and run off without Him. Instead, He simply asks that I cultivate that mustard seed of faith and allow Him to do what He does best.
He'll make all things good in time. Right now I just need to wait and listen. JG
posted by Jon Graves at 12:20 AM
6 Comments:
Jon,
I haven't visited your site in awhile and wasn't sure what led me here tonight but after reading I know. The faith you have in "being exactly where you are supposed to be" because it is God's plan for you speaks to me as well. It is so comforting when everything else seems so topsy turvy doesn't it? I too have that strong faith in whatever God's plan is for me is I will live it the very best I can;although my husband thinks I am crazy(does not share my faith in that sense) and it saddens me because I love him so much and know how much better he would feel if only he would let himself go into the arms of God's love. But to him that is not enough. I followed your journey through your blogs till Jes's death. Your mutual love of each other and of God was so beautiful. Her Memorial service was one of the most uplifting and inspirational I have ever attended. I am so grateful I was able to attend and to be a part of the celebration of her life.
You mentioned moving, if it is out of the area, I wish you only the best for you and your wonderful family. LD
A friend pointed me to your sight a while back and each time I've visited I've walked away blessed. As someone who lost the love of his life in quite a different way I would encourage you to truly embrace one thing . . . the fact that you knew she loved you. One day we'll all stand before God and the hurts of this world will make total sense, until then, FAITH.
Jon,
I'm excited for you and the boys. I know God has some wonderful things in store for all of you. I do hope you won't have to quit blogging because your words bring such blessing and inspiration to all of us. I check your site everyday and am always eager to read your posts. Often, your words are just what I need to hear to apply to my own life. I always want to leave a comment but try to refrain so I don't monopolize your time. I continue to lift you and the boys up in prayer. Thank you so much for sharing your life and thoughts with us.
God bless,
Joan
I continue to be blessed when I read your Blog and I feel you heart in each word. Trully life has many turns and the wonderful part of it is that you know God will lead you in His plans as you seek Him. (Jer. 29:11) I always have to remind myself what the Word says, "For everything there is a season." God has certainly shown that in my own life, and it has not been easy in the past for me to wait on Him, as you know.
Perhaps your new home is the beginning of a new season for you and the boys. As hard as it is at the time, be assured that the cherished memories of what you and the boys shared with Jes will always be with you...the good and the difficult, regardless of your physical location. Life continues even in our tiredness when we wish for a pause, and Jes' legacy is proving to continue on to this day. She will never be forgotten.
Keep doing what you are doing, son, resting in the One who holds you in His arms and gives you His strength and peach each new day; "for Joy cometh in the morning."
love,
Mom
jon,
a friend who runs a cancer prayer web page turned us all onto your page and she has shared this blog with us many times.
I will pray that this new move will be good for both you and the boys.
May the Lord continue to bless you.
Sandy
from NJ.
People should read this.
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