The Big Question
Spirit Day at The Rock Academy. We had so much fun this morning getting the boys' hair color just right. (Thank you CVS for the hair paint!)
This week has been hard, though. My first day back to work was.......well, it was different. Everything is different now. Jeseca has spent the past six weeks with God, while I have been figuring out simply how to get by without her. And I find myself coming back to the same question every day: Can I be the same man without her as I was when we were together? Honestly, I don't know. I know how to be nice and smile; I know what to say to people when they ask how I'm doing; I know how to lift people up when they don't know what to say to me. But am I the same? Can I be better than I was when I had the support of my best friend and the richness of heart that came with knowing and loving her? That's a tough one.
And so this portion of my journey begins, while the wound is still raw and the sting still burns. God has asked that I trust him. So I'll move ahead each day, as God continues to reveal his plan one small step at a time. That's what matters most, right? Learning to walk with him in the best and worst of times. Lord, be with me. JG
posted by Jon Graves at 11:06 PM
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