Our high-stakes poker game
Last Thursday I spoke with the oncologist's office to get a better understanding of cachexia and how to deal with it. As I described Jeseca's condition, they confirmed that it was indeed cachexia, and began explaining the different stages and what we should expect next. The outlook is grim. They expect Jes to slip into a coma shortly, and then, when she can no longer eat anything......well, you know. We ordered a supplement that is supposed to lessen the effects of cachexia and are praying it helps (when we finally receive it -- it's been nearly two weeks).
Jeseca is just like me; she wants to know everything the doctors have to say. So we discussed it all Thursday and Friday night, trying to wrap our heads around everything; trying to understand what God is doing, what we have yet to do or plan for, and how we never imagined it would ever get to this point.
But it has. We're staring death in the face right now, and no man-made solution can make a difference. We're too far along in the game at this point. What we need is a "Wooo!" miracle. The stage is certainly set, and I will continue to hold to the hope we have and the promise we believe we have heard until God proves otherwise. And even then, if we have heard wrong, I trust that God will help me remain faithful to Him as I face a life without my very best friend and love, the mother of our two young men, my heart's eternal companion.
But I don't think we've heard wrong.
God is our strength and our shield, our comfort now. And He can do the impossible. The doctors have said that Jeseca will die soon. Those are the cards we hold now. But God is in our corner, and we're all-in. To God be the glory. JG
Jeseca is just like me; she wants to know everything the doctors have to say. So we discussed it all Thursday and Friday night, trying to wrap our heads around everything; trying to understand what God is doing, what we have yet to do or plan for, and how we never imagined it would ever get to this point.
But it has. We're staring death in the face right now, and no man-made solution can make a difference. We're too far along in the game at this point. What we need is a "Wooo!" miracle. The stage is certainly set, and I will continue to hold to the hope we have and the promise we believe we have heard until God proves otherwise. And even then, if we have heard wrong, I trust that God will help me remain faithful to Him as I face a life without my very best friend and love, the mother of our two young men, my heart's eternal companion.
But I don't think we've heard wrong.
God is our strength and our shield, our comfort now. And He can do the impossible. The doctors have said that Jeseca will die soon. Those are the cards we hold now. But God is in our corner, and we're all-in. To God be the glory. JG
Labels: Jeseca's Fight Against Cancer
posted by Jon Graves at 5:34 AM
4 Comments:
Thank you for your openness to share with us when you heart must be so heavy ladened. We know beyond a shadow of a doubt that God is a God of "Woooo" Miracles and this is certainly a God-sized task (miracle) to perform. As believers, we also know that He is in control and He is ever faithful.
The two of you have had unwaivering faith in Him through all of this illness and He will always honor that. We must rest in what He has spoken to you many times..."My grace is sufficient." Someday we will all be rejoicing together in Heaven, and will know the "why" of this illness. (Of course then it won't matter, as we are sitting at His feet...what a wonderful place to be.) But speaking for myself, it's so terribly hard to accept in this life. I cannot even imagine our lives without Jes.
Know that I am in the corner right along with the two of you. I am here for you both at any time, any moment, for any thing.
Continual prayers, faith and love,
Mom
Thanks for keeping so many of us updated. Gosh I love Jes so much....I don't even come close to knowing how you all feel.
Jon I know you already know this but remember, "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." Sometimes all we can do is hang on a scripture and God will do the rest.
much love and give a kiss to Jess for me. I'm coming over to bring you guys some meals this week.
nadine
Jon, I have been following your blog, on Jes, and as hard as it may be, we have to accept God's will, but one day, and I know that day is soon, we will all be together again, at the feet of Jesus. I have been praying so very hard for your Jes, and for her "miracle" My heart truley breaks for your entire family, I wish there was something I could say, to ease your pain, but I know the bible says, to be absent from the body, is to be present with the Lord.
There have been so many of us praying for Jes's healing, all over the United States, please know, we will not stop. I leave you with this scripture, I pray it helps you at this time, Isaiah 41:13.
God bless the both of you, and I pray for a peace that passes all understanding for you both, you have shown the truth faith in God, through all of this, in my prayers always, Pat Craig
Jon,
I just found out about your request for prayer. I visited your webpage and read about your wife's illness. I started praying immediately for you, Jeseca, and your sons.
God is faithful to His promises and merciful in all of His acts. Your family has a wonderful testimony of God's goodness and love.
You are requesting prayer for your family, and on the same hand your testimony has blessed me and seemingly so many others. May God continue to give your family strength through this trying journey.
I have emailed your prayer request to family members who are all strong prayer warriors. Keep the faith, Jon. We love you!
Loretta
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