Thoughts and knowledge
I woke up at 4:00 a.m. this morning to a sense of overall dread or urgency. It wasn't because of Jeseca or anything ominous related to her fight against cancer. It was more a calling to get up and look for answers. Not being completely coherent, I wandered to the living room and opened my Bible to Job. Great......
I read chapters 8-11. Job is crying out to God for relief, even death, for his suffering is too much to bear any longer. I thought of Jes. Job pleads with God to end it all, declaring his innocence and wondering how all of this ruin could have come to him. His friends tell him it's all his fault; God is just punishing him for his evil deeds. I thought of how Satan continually whispers in my ear that God hasn't healed Jeseca because of me. Job acknowledges that his friends have stated what anyone can understand. Then he makes the point that, even if he were innocent, if God wanted to judge him, he would have no opportunity to object. It is God who makes the rules. I thought about my last entry about not understanding.
Knowing how Job's story ends, I felt better somehow. God restores his health and blesses him with twice as much as he had before. And, Job never lost his wife. She gave him some pretty bad advice once, but that's another story. I guess I can take this morning's urgency as God's wake-up call. I don't have to understand why God does or does not do something. I only need to understand that He is God; that He makes the rules; that He is love; and that He has Jeseca's best interest at heart.
We can look for ways to alleviate Jeseca's symptoms, like Job scraping his sores. Whatever we decide to do, it helps to know and understand that God's plan always wins out. And based on what He has shown us, though times may be tough now, there is a much better life ahead. Thank God for that. JG
I read chapters 8-11. Job is crying out to God for relief, even death, for his suffering is too much to bear any longer. I thought of Jes. Job pleads with God to end it all, declaring his innocence and wondering how all of this ruin could have come to him. His friends tell him it's all his fault; God is just punishing him for his evil deeds. I thought of how Satan continually whispers in my ear that God hasn't healed Jeseca because of me. Job acknowledges that his friends have stated what anyone can understand. Then he makes the point that, even if he were innocent, if God wanted to judge him, he would have no opportunity to object. It is God who makes the rules. I thought about my last entry about not understanding.
Knowing how Job's story ends, I felt better somehow. God restores his health and blesses him with twice as much as he had before. And, Job never lost his wife. She gave him some pretty bad advice once, but that's another story. I guess I can take this morning's urgency as God's wake-up call. I don't have to understand why God does or does not do something. I only need to understand that He is God; that He makes the rules; that He is love; and that He has Jeseca's best interest at heart.
We can look for ways to alleviate Jeseca's symptoms, like Job scraping his sores. Whatever we decide to do, it helps to know and understand that God's plan always wins out. And based on what He has shown us, though times may be tough now, there is a much better life ahead. Thank God for that. JG
Labels: Jeseca's Fight Against Cancer
posted by Jon Graves at 6:53 AM
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